Today.

Just another day, or it may seem. Today just started out as a normal day getting up, getting ready for the work, getting to work doing my thing and just getting through the day. It also was one of those days that you just think all day. Doesn't matter what you are thinking about you just think about whatever is going on in your mind. Anyone that knows me and what is going on in my life right now would know what is going through my mind, it hasn't really been going through my head here lately, I have blocked it out most of the time. But something hit me today, something hard, I was just doing my normal clean up work and I just stopped and started thinking about everything, of course I got upset about stuff. Everything on the radio was against me, sad songs, break-up songs, what have you. Everyone has been there and knows what I am talking about. But it was one of those times that you just think, what went wrong? What did I do to deserve this in life right now? It's not just relationship stuff per-say, it's a big part of it yes, but it's just life in general right now, I don't know why but I have been really depressed this week, just trying to get through the days, with the days just dragging on never wanting to end it seems and all I want to do is just go home a curl in bed and lay there, past few nights that what I have done, not staying up like I usually do just going to bed laying there and thinking of everything that is going one. It's sad really, I don't know any other way of putting it. There's something wrong, just on the drive home from work I just randomly got upset and started crying for no reason, well there are reasons. .reasons in my head that just up set me, but again it's odd cause I haven't had any of these thoughts in a very long time so why are they stirring up now? This is all just pointless rambling but it helps get things off my chest with out having to talk to anyone really. Most will read this and be like boohoo cry a river build a bridge and get over it, but it affects life and how things are done and interaction with people and just day to day things. I don't know what else to really say so this will be it for today.